May We Dance Upon Their Graves

Incest Survivors, Spirituality and Ceremonies of Justice – the story of a woman living a rich, fulfilling life while waiting to dance on her sociopath father's grave.

Benefits of being a sexual abuse survivor…


I’ve been feeling disheartened lately. I’ve been practicing tantric yoni massage (no endorsement implied in the link, but the description seems about right, and it even mentions survivors), both on my … Continue reading

March 4, 2014 · 3 Comments

Herne’s blessings – vulva healing and sexuality


Surprize! Getting the inflammation in my vulva down to a dull roar did not instantly fix my sex life. Surprize! Struggling while trying to restore my vulva to the state … Continue reading

July 2, 2013 · 5 Comments

The painless vulva miracle


What a miracle this steroid cream is! I put it on and within an hour, I feel something I’ve never felt before. The pain, of burning and heat is replaced … Continue reading

June 16, 2013 · 6 Comments

Treatment and healing – chronic vulva inflammatory condition


So I had my follow up visit with the gyne specialist last Friday. Here’s the skinny. I do not have planus lichen (SO glad I went ahead with the biopsy!) … Continue reading

June 12, 2013 · 5 Comments

Autoimmune Disorders and PTSD


So this thing that makes my vulva and vagina feel like it has a bad sunburn (sometimes a healing itchy one, sometimes a fresh hot painful one) is an autoimmune … Continue reading

May 17, 2013 · 9 Comments

Better, stronger, faster than before.


First off, the specialist did not help me assess the damage from the assault. I was disappointed. However, she did have a very credible theory for what could be causing … Continue reading

May 10, 2013 · 7 Comments

Courage, Perseverence, Gratitude


Here’s an excerpt from the typed page I’m giving to the Ob/Gyn specialist later this morning: “What I am here for: 1)      My goal is to improve my ability to … Continue reading

May 10, 2013 · 2 Comments

I have an appointment!


I just found out I have an appointment with a woman obstetrician/gynecologist for May 10th. The doctor who set up the appointment for me thought that an obstetrician might be … Continue reading

April 5, 2013 · 6 Comments

Bravery and Vulnerability


I’ve been reading Brene Brown’s recent book “Daring Greatly”. Most of the information is stuff I already know, but it’s good to review and there were some new bits. I … Continue reading

December 14, 2012 · 5 Comments

Another disappointing response from a relative


I had my aunt visit recently, the one who was also assaulted by my father. When I visited her a couple of years ago, she was very accepting of what … Continue reading

August 20, 2012 · 14 Comments

Pap Test Success for Incest Survivor


I am an amazon! I had a pap test and negotiated for what I needed. Yay me. I went to the drop in clinic today because I have a stomach … Continue reading

June 25, 2012 · 5 Comments

Life Full of Beauty


I wish I could write in more detail about my new lover and our first nights together, but  the story is partly hers and not mine to share. All I … Continue reading

April 27, 2012 · 4 Comments

I am happy.


I haven’t written much because not much on the sexual abuse theme has been up lately. I’m happy. I smile. I look at old pictures of myself with a wistful … Continue reading

April 11, 2012 · 4 Comments

PTSD Spaciness triggered waiting for letter from mom


So I’ve been extra spacey lately since the news about the impending letter from my mom replying to the one I sent her three years ago. It’s not like I … Continue reading

August 5, 2011 · 8 Comments

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