May We Dance Upon Their Graves

Incest Survivors, Spirituality and Ceremonies of Justice – the story of a woman living a rich, fulfilling life while waiting to dance on her sociopath father's grave.

Rules of kvetching: applied to CSA survivors


My neck has been particularly seized up since I found out about the appointment with the gynecologist. Coincidence? Not likely. Since the assault that caused the tearing in my vagina … Continue reading

April 14, 2013 · 12 Comments

Managing Cortisol Levels for People with Complex PTSD


One of the problems with having been in a chronic state of fear and anxiety for years and years while surviving the abuse, and then while healing from it, is … Continue reading

January 18, 2012 · 2 Comments

I am open, and I am willing


Hey folks. I know I haven’t been writing here much lately. I’m working on my book a bit, it’s coming along nicely, actually. I got a bit of a boost … Continue reading

May 28, 2011 · 8 Comments

Eureka – take that, vulvadynia!


Okay, I seem to have it figured out. The yoga is great, but I found something even better. Just becoming aware of how often I clench the muscles of my … Continue reading

April 24, 2011 · 4 Comments

What Quark the Ferrengi taught me about coping mechanisms and PTSD


This won’t make much sense to non-Trekkies. In the Star Trek Series of TV shows, particularly ‘Deep Space Nine’, there is a species called Ferrengi, who are avaricious and focussed … Continue reading

February 26, 2011 · 2 Comments

What I learned about night fears and sexual abuse survivors


In this post, I wanted to share what I’ve learned about night fears resulting from sexual assaults as a child and how to reduce them. I started out with night … Continue reading

January 2, 2011 · 20 Comments

Post therapy


Well, it’s been a couple of weeks now since my last therapy session I think. I’m choosing to spend time on the present day goals I have, improving my singing, … Continue reading

June 23, 2010 · 8 Comments

Article about survivors and strenuous physical exercise.


Here is a sports medicine journal article which is the only one I found about survivors and issues with exercise. There was another one that said that about half of … Continue reading

January 7, 2010 · 5 Comments

Exercise


I just did a rather mild exercise session to an online video: http://www.doctoroz.com/videos/you-diet-beginners-workout I didn’t make it through without crying. I think I stopped half way, doing the floor exercises. … Continue reading

January 6, 2010 · 2 Comments

The Bear


So I figure I’ve got grieving nailed down now. At the retreat this week I had several gut-shaking cries that were very cleansing. In a wierd way, I like grieving, … Continue reading

August 26, 2009 · 4 Comments

Filling a space


Last night I was reading in bed waiting for my wife to (finally) stop messing around on the computer and come to bed.  The book I was reading was on … Continue reading

July 24, 2009 · 3 Comments

One foot in front of the other


I went and looked up the name of a lawyer I want to talk to about pressuring my dad into confessing. I want to have a confession or something like … Continue reading

July 22, 2009 · 6 Comments

My Older Brother


A few weeks back I called my older brother, and left a phone message. I want to talk to him about some stuff to do with my father dying and … Continue reading

June 9, 2009 · 6 Comments

Hunting down the fragments


After my success last week with the intrusive imagery, I decided this week to hunt down other pain in the ass residues of being a survivor that are persistent. I … Continue reading

May 12, 2009 · 2 Comments

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