May We Dance Upon Their Graves
Incest Survivors, Spirituality and Ceremonies of Justice – the story of a woman living a rich, fulfilling life while waiting to dance on her sociopath father's grave.
Tag Archives: PTSD
Managing Cortisol Levels for People with Complex PTSD
One of the problems with having been in a chronic state of fear and anxiety for years and years while surviving the abuse, and then while healing from it, is … Continue reading
Rape dreams and release
So I had ‘fending off rape dreams’ this morning, three consecutive ones. Not a big surprise, given how angry I’ve been lately. I tend to have ‘monsters/men are hurting me’ … Continue reading
PTSD Spaciness triggered waiting for letter from mom
So I’ve been extra spacey lately since the news about the impending letter from my mom replying to the one I sent her three years ago. It’s not like I … Continue reading
Dear teachers (who saved my life)
Dear Teachers, I know some of you remember me. I was gifted and quiet, well behaved, used big words solemnly, like the bookworm I was and still am. When I … Continue reading
Memories of childhood sexual assault – why are they different? how can we trust them?
One of the most difficult things about suviving childhood sexual assault is coping with the fragmented and taboo nature of our memories. This breaks down into three main issues: Memories … Continue reading
What I learned about anxiety – for child sexual abuse survivors
Feel whatever is there in a safe place The first time I remember not being anxious was after a 12 step meeting. My shoulders were relaxed. This had never happened … Continue reading
What I learned about night fears and sexual abuse survivors
In this post, I wanted to share what I’ve learned about night fears resulting from sexual assaults as a child and how to reduce them. I started out with night … Continue reading
Car Crash – or what PTSD is like – novel
[Note: Since I first wrote this, this piece has gotten a lot of attention for being a really good way to explain to people in your life what it's like … Continue reading
A good apology
This song often makes me cry. It’s about the Australian government’s apology to the aboriginal peoples of Australia, but…. imagine it is an apology from the people of your home … Continue reading
Non-Random Events
One of the things I believe as part of my religion is that communication with the Gods is not just a one way flow. Events that feel significant in one … Continue reading
Boxed in
Last night I watched a show called ‘the listener’ where the hero is this paramedic with the ability to listen to people’s thoughts. Often this leads to him helping people. … Continue reading
Obsessing about all the ways I’ve come out as an incest survivor, rather than sleeping, at 5:20 am
It’s 5:20 am and I can’t sleep. I’m not one of those poor people who actually gets up at 5 am for work or the insane ones that get up … Continue reading
Runaway train
This morning I went for an hour long massage. I really like my massage therapist. I don’t see her that often, but she’s this nice, smart woman and we have … Continue reading
Letter #1 – My Mother is not a saint
Hi Mom, I’ve been thinking about how to mend my relationship with you. I thought I’d start by sending letters. What I thought is that, in 14 years where we … Continue reading
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