May We Dance Upon Their Graves

Incest Survivors, Spirituality and Ceremonies of Justice – the story of a woman living a rich, fulfilling life while waiting to dance on her sociopath father's grave.

What I’ve learned about coming out as an incest survivor (part 1)


I’m trying to write a chapter on coming out as an incest or child sexual assault survivor for the book. There are a lot of reasons to come out, and … Continue reading

January 7, 2014 · 7 Comments

Managing Cortisol Levels for People with Complex PTSD


One of the problems with having been in a chronic state of fear and anxiety for years and years while surviving the abuse, and then while healing from it, is … Continue reading

January 18, 2012 · 2 Comments

Rape dreams and release


So I had ‘fending off rape dreams’ this morning, three consecutive ones. Not a big surprise, given how angry I’ve been lately. I tend to have ‘monsters/men are hurting me’ … Continue reading

August 6, 2011 · 2 Comments

PTSD Spaciness triggered waiting for letter from mom


So I’ve been extra spacey lately since the news about the impending letter from my mom replying to the one I sent her three years ago. It’s not like I … Continue reading

August 5, 2011 · 8 Comments

Dear teachers (who saved my life)


Dear Teachers, I know some of you remember me. I was gifted and quiet, well behaved, used big words solemnly, like the bookworm I was and still am. When I … Continue reading

June 14, 2011 · 10 Comments

Memories of childhood sexual assault – why are they different? how can we trust them?


One of the most difficult things about suviving childhood sexual assault is coping with the fragmented and taboo nature of our memories. This breaks down into three main issues: Memories … Continue reading

February 6, 2011 · 27 Comments

What I learned about anxiety – for child sexual abuse survivors


Feel whatever is there in a safe place The first time I remember not being anxious was after a 12 step meeting. My shoulders were relaxed. This had never happened … Continue reading

January 19, 2011 · 11 Comments

What I learned about night fears and sexual abuse survivors


In this post, I wanted to share what I’ve learned about night fears resulting from sexual assaults as a child and how to reduce them. I started out with night … Continue reading

January 2, 2011 · 16 Comments

Car Crash – or what PTSD is like – novel


[Note: Since I first wrote this, this piece has gotten a lot of attention for being a really good way to explain to people in your life what it’s like … Continue reading

November 7, 2010 · 31 Comments

A good apology


This song often makes me cry. It’s about the Australian government’s apology to the aboriginal peoples of Australia, but…. imagine it is an apology from the people of your home … Continue reading

June 9, 2010 · 1 Comment

Non-Random Events


One of the things I believe as part of my religion is that communication with the Gods is not just a one way flow.  Events that feel significant in one … Continue reading

February 16, 2010 · 2 Comments

Boxed in


Last night I watched a show called ‘the listener’ where the hero is this paramedic with the ability to listen to people’s thoughts. Often this leads to him helping people. … Continue reading

February 2, 2010 · 3 Comments

Obsessing about all the ways I’ve come out as an incest survivor, rather than sleeping, at 5:20 am


It’s 5:20 am and I can’t sleep. I’m not one of those poor people who actually gets up at 5 am for work or the insane ones that get up … Continue reading

April 22, 2009 · 7 Comments

Runaway train


This morning I went for an hour long massage. I really like my massage therapist. I don’t see her that often, but she’s this nice, smart woman and we have … Continue reading

April 18, 2009 · 9 Comments

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