Survivor reaction after massage

Predictably, I felt vulnerable and emotional most of the week, after even a simple, tiny amount of compassionate work on my strangulation-surviving neck. It felt like pms. I cried easily and felt fragile, distracted and touchy.

Makes me wonder if I really want to get into this right now… Although I know there’s no time like the present for dealing with abuse crap – putting it off isn’t a good idea. We’ll see how I am after this weekends session. I think I’ll probably have her work on my leg first and get to know her better, after that, we’ll see about the neck, even though my inner kid really wants that area of me to be healed.

About sworddancewarrior

I am a woman who was raped by a family member representing all of us who feel the need to hold accountable our abusers and the parts of society that protect them. May we outlive them all, and dance in celebration of our courage and perseverance on their graves.
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3 Responses to Survivor reaction after massage

  1. Janey says:

    Trust your instincts it is your legs you walk on so perhaps you need to work on both but your leg first. I hope you have a lovely scarf and sox. Big hugs you are doing good work cheers janeyxxx

  2. I think you shouldn’t worry to much. I think you should start where you feel you can handle it at that point. If you’re not ready, you’re not ready. I think it’s that simple. You will be ready some day…

    You will make it.

    I wish you all the strength on your journey to recovery.

    Sincerely,

    – Prozacblogger

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